July 10, 2020

Reading this post from a year ago, I sit & wonder how Jane is still with us. This disease has been so terrible to her for so long. And now thanks to covid, she has not been hugged by a family member since mid March. What keeps her holding on? Is it because she doesn’t want to die alone? Our stupid requirements around covid would restrict her family from being by her side even if she were simply dying from dementia. I suppose I am at least grateful Jane is so deep into dementia that she doesn’t really know we haven’t visited – or at least I hope she doesn’t know. It kills me to think she may feel we have abandoned her.

I hate this disease!

*see memory from July 10, 2019*